How anxiety and lack of self confidence is ruining my health (Vulnerability Writing Therapy)
This type of article is going to be a series of what happens inside the head of a master anxiety person :) I called it the vulnerability writing therapy (don’t know if that really exist).
This type of article will be my way to express what I’m feeling, to be more emotionally intelligent and to develop my vulnerability skill.
It’s a “selfish” article as it’s for me a way to be more vulnerable; To jump out of my confort zone. To use the power of writing to decrease my anxiety, to reduce the burden on my shoulders. Me, me me.
In the other hand, if this article can help another person who feel the same and relate on what I’m writing, it would be the cherry on the cake.
What I definitely can relate to is if you want to be a leader of your life, you need to express what you’re feeling in order to have strong connection with others, personally and professionally. Being vulnerable will attract great people around you. And this is what I want in my life.
Being vulnerable is an act of bravery. For an introverted person who hide his emotions on a daily basis for so long, it’s like climbing the mont Everest… barefoot
What happened ?
I can definitely say that my health decrease in the last 12 months and so.
Multiple skin infection, eczema, very high blood pressure, sleep disorder, strong headache… I didn’t have any of these before.
The “funny” thing is that I’m passionate about sports and personal development and I have all the tools to overcome that state; But instead I stayed in my head and do nothing. Even if I knew that was good for me. What I notice that it was a slow but steady decrease.
I use the small steps theory but in the totally opposite way : I remove, little by little, my good habits. The result was I felt more isolated, I didn’t listen and answer to my needs, I didn’t have a clear vision of what I wanted to do, I didn’t want to move or take any risks, everything was emotionally painful, I crave for immediate gratification and so on…
What’s next ?
I start the new year with the same health issues but get back on track with some healthy habits. Mainly those who reduce the high blood pressure : Yoga, meditation and power nap, every day of the week. I’ll reduce the consumption of salt, sugar and bad fat in food. I also do journaling again.
It’s going to be a long road until being more physically and mentally healthy.
What I’m sure is, like having medics, I will have to do this all my life starting now. And I’m ok with this. Because my health is my priority among everything else.
I’ll try not to be too hard with me and work to be more brave. To trust myself
And to use the small steps theory with me, not against me ;)
To be continued…